In class yesterday we went over tegatana and hanasu and (from my Kihara sheet) we did pattern number one. Or at least the one where we go from release 1 to 2 or 5 and some of the fun inbetween. Sensei added some more fruit for thought to change what i thought i knew about what i knew. I have decided that the process of learning Aikido is one of deconstruction of momentarily held beliefs causing me to constantly change my ideas on what i'm doing until (and this is the part i assume atm) it's all as natural/comfortable as how i started out. It's like a masochistic learning process but i do enjoy it.
Anyway, the thing that sort of blew my mind the most was during our kihara practice. As we slowly broke down the first pattern i got to see more and more how that little neutral pause at the end of the line works. I have all sorts of theories on it and how my palm being up or down limits where uke will end up but i could just as easily be thinking out of my ass.
Learning, it's a process.